Wondrous Life of a Dreamer

it seems endless.... this is not a story this is only a mind who speaks everytime, whenever it wants sometimes I can't catch the train inside my head it keeps moving so fast I can't even make it stop than the thoughts flows to my mouth as it come out to be a puzzle I cannot solve it is chaosness inside my head inside my brain inside my soul inside my solitary room I have a room of my own a space which only mind able to conceive a space inside my heart beating slower than my mind can count every tempo of my life life is a memory too much memory in just one mind another chaos comes, but never goes it stays they never understand I thought one could but leave me in an unknown emptiness without explanation leave me I've never felt so alone alone in a running mind it used to be fixed with only words but now, it back to a normal chaos hey, its just another chaos everybody has it in their own house of mind yes it is just another play for ...

rambling. that's what I love to do and really great at it. if there's too much inside my head, it feels like I wanna blow up inside me and burst into the salty sea (?) diving until I reaches the bottom. I used to do whatever I want without think clearly first. so it will turned out become a rambling stuff. well,  tonight to be excact I'm nganggur..I should be doing my homework for studio tomorrow, instead I'm rambling in my blog listening to mayer, the police, robyn, oona and estelle. oh yeah, recently (btw this one is not a ramble stuff) I've learn some new moves to take my team to dance competition in just a few weeks. the choreo is nuts and still going to continue..long way to go and my knees already hurts like hell. but hey its a new experience for me and surely really challengging for all of us. I was quiet surprise that the choreo was sooo out-reaching, for me, I don't know for the others. during the rehearsals I was a little bit keteteran because keep f...

I totally love this routine by Sonya Tayeh on So You Think You Can Dance Season 7 featuring Eleanore and Jakob . They both are fantastic dancers. Also not only the routine which fascinates me, the melody of the song are sooo damn nice in rhythm.. like when you wanna step on the floor, Tango-ing with your enemy without hesitation.. Looking in the eye that 'you...know that you tore my heart!' just only saying..hahahaha.. somebody tored my heart? perhaps..you better watch out.. naah kidding :D Tore My Heart by Oona La la la la... If I had my way You would still be stuck on me But when I rock myself to sleep I dream of you again La la la la... You know you tore my heart, dear Just when I always thought La la la la... Somewhere youre fast asleep I hope youre terrified One wild nightmare Cause you tore my heart I still feel your skin Soft as velvet, thick as sin Whisper tender, shiver deep You got me good, no good for me La la la la... Somewhere ...

Dogs in a neighbourhood I know, they are unwanted, most of them are because the excuse of those people who claimed themselves they have a religion. Muslims not suppose to have dogs in their homes or family, because they said that these are disgusting animal, what that they called hmm, najis .. well I think it because of they are dirty, if we don't bathed them..and their saliva brings any possible dangerous bacteria. those are facts. but people who really have a religion are those who respects and love nature, not a man with his car hit a cat and not even just a slight to checked out that the cat was okay but he just ran away and shouted 'don't worry, I'm a Muslim!'. Is that ironic?? That's embarassing, in the name of my religion, he shouted just like that when the people over there shouted him to stop and should take his responsibility. Those people were mad and cursed that man... I'm an animal lover, my whole family loves animal.. My grandpare...

this song keeps singing in my mind, i can't put it down. Mars has pulled something inside me and making me thinking about the lyrics. the melody making me visualized myself strolling down at the beach looking at someone and finally saying its over..gaaah...there's always painful thing about love. but thank God, it never happened to me before, but it will someday.. so i picked out some lyrics that strikes me everytime i heard also with the soft-heartbreaking melody... IT WILL RAIN by Bruno Mars (cut out lyrics) "..If you ever leave me baby, Leave some morphine at my door ‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication To realize what we used to have , We don’t have it anymore ......" "[Chorus] Cause there’ll be no sunlight If I lose you, baby There’ll be no clear skies If I lose you , baby Just like the clouds My eyes will do the same, if you walk away Everyday it will rain , rain, rain..." "...Don’t just say, goodbye..." I'm kind...

front of Bali Beach Hotel, Sanur, Bali, September 2011 (When I was take a dip in this beach, I was thinking about my future life is going to be.and love..) Many silly quotes about love that are sometimes making me laugh. But when i found out today from a friend that love is delivered in many ways and many shapes. And i found out the definition between love ‘sayang’ and love ‘cinta’ from a friend’s theory. Someone said that she finds the word sayang when she met a guy with very nice attention towards her and their status were only around between brother and sister. He cared a lot to her, he took care of her like driving her to some place and watched her to made sure that she’s always save. She loves (sayang) him too, and she really cared about him and love him like a brother. That guy already had a girlfriend and his GF was actually really mad at him because he gave too much attention towards my friend. Short story, a few years later they broke up, and my friend and that guy never ...

heartbreak warfare Lightning strikes Inside, my chest to keep me up at night Dream of ways To make you understand my pain Clouds of sulfur in the air Bombs are falling everywhere It's heartbreak warfare Once you want it to begin, No one really ever wins In heartbreak warfare If you want more love, why don't you say so? If you want more love, why don't you say so? Drop his name Push it in and twist the knife again Watch my face As I pretend to feel no pain Clouds of sulfur in the air Bombs are falling everywhere It's heartbreak warfare Once you want it to begin, No one really ever wins In heartbreak warfare. If you want more love, why don't you say so? If you want more love, why don't you say so? Just say so... How come the only way to know how high you get me is to see how far I fall God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me but I can't break through at all. It's a heartbreak... I don't care if we don...