Wondrous Life of a Dreamer

Today, I'll write a short post (or maybe not, we'll see).  It's been a while since I've written anything. An article or even a diary (yes, I still keep my diary flowing). So, my language is about to get a little rough, hehe.  I stumbled across this inspiring article in a small magazine called Intisari. My mom used to subscribe monthly. Today I read an article written by Alexander Sriewijono in a column, which I don't want to mention because like...it's about Career. Well, yea, hello, insecurity anyone?  Okay, so he is a Psychologist & a Founder of Daily Meaning. "The Perfect Imperfection" is an article that we all perfectionist can relate to. A little backstory I want to tell you. All my life I have not been perfect, but naturally I am born-perfectionist. Among 4 temperaments they have, I'm the one who says "Has/Have to" and "This, cannot be this way." "You are so wrong."  and so on. I am Choler...

"No, I'm not color blind I know the world is black and white Try to keep an open mind but I just can't sleep on this tonight Stop this train I wanna get off and go home again I can't take the speed it's moving in I know I can't But, honestly, won't someone stop this train? ..." Stop This Train Song by: John Mayer  (I recommend to check the full lyric:  http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/johnmayer/stopthistrain.html )  This song has been played multiple times recently by me. I was breaking down the intro about Mayer being all worried about what he was going through and felt fed up with the world he was dealing with. Though he had wonderful and successful years of carrier as a musician, he was just wanted to stop by getting off the train. Like, not literally.     I just had this wonderful conversation with my dear friend, Rara. She's one of my closest friend. She's amazing also a dedicated per...

CIKITA, Eps. 1: A Dog Who Bites Firework. Yeah, I've been posting them, both of  my dog in this blog. And suddenly, I decided to make my dog a channel. Cikita will hopefully be a star because of her witty acts. Hahaha. Can't stop laughing at this video.  Dear friends, please check out this vid!  Thank you! P.S.: Please forgive me for my over excited background voice. Yes, I totally wanted to mute it too, but I don't know how. PLEASE SOMEBODY TELL ME HOW!!! Thanks. 

Well, that sentence just slapped on your face with denial of your unhappiness: "yea, sure, I never dimmed my f*ck*n shine out, I still have hopes. Dude, I'm still young, come on!" *insecure* *think back* *sigh, tired* *opened Facebook and then cry* One fine day, back in the days when I was in university studying Interior Architecture, one lecturer tell us about a very deep song: "...John Mayer was making this song while he's in his mid-twenties. He was having a crisis." That, was the very first time I've found out that age crisis doesn't only happened for the middle-aged people. It is also happened for the twenties people. Yeah, read-me! That quote somehow summed up my life recently. I was totally in very dark space when I dropped out from a life that I have build so hard to get on top, and unfortunately, I backed down. I remember back when was so into my work and so damned good at what I love (I am not bragging, I just feel like damned ...

Tentang Big Bang. Iya, kalian tau kan? Bukan film komedi Amerika lho . Iya, cowok-cowok Korea yang biasanya joget sama bikin gemes ( uek ). SIAPA SIHHHH?? O EM GEE Merupakan seorang pembohong ketika gue menyangkal kalo gue gak suka sama KPop. Dulu gue bilang: "Kpop apaan sih.. Euwh...". Buktinya....gue mulai mendalami lagu-lagunya Big Bang yang kemudian merambah ke live shownya, wawancara, variety show dan...Running Man-nya. Hadeuh. Kena deh gue. Mereka emang beda, nggak kayak boyband lainnya ya. Gue bukan VIP sih, (atau mungkin sudah, tapi tidak mengakuinya) tapi gue mengakategorikan mereka sebagai bukan boyband tapi ya...sekelompok pemusik aja yang pake make-up dan kostum super heboh ketika di video klip ataupun panggung. Tapi gue suka banget sama lagu-lagu mereka lho, yang hits-hits gitu. Recently, gue suka "Bang Bang Bang" dan cukup terperangkap dengan melodi swag-nya "Bae Bae". Maklum gue suka joget, jadinya rada nari nggak...

My parents taught me that being a person need to have a our own principals, to be our self and be respectful to others.  Right now, I am doing it. I have my own principals when it comes to animal rights and human rights. And most of you will have your own rights to disagree and close my blog after you see the title above. OR, maybe you are curious and continue to read. I suggest that you choose from your heart. I respect and appreciate differences. My mother also told me that differences are meant to be understood. So, I discover the world where people has to be themselves and to make differences for their lives to affect others.  I am proud to say that I respect queer people and thrilled that they have the right to get married, in the US, 50 states has been legalized gay marriage by The Supreme Court.  Why? Let's just say that the world is about finding your way towards equality. Yes. You had to remember when Martin Luther King freed African-American f...

A friend said that in the beginning of your young adult years, things aren't working out as you planned. well, at least you only feel that way. the truth is how can you perceive it. if you think you are successful in your super-awsome-fantastic-21 well, think again. lots of insecurities you'll find. the path you're going through, not so smooth as you have planned. I feel that way, yes. but guys, don't deny the truth that YOU also feel that way. issues are coming through your days whether you liked it or not. it is how to face it, not reject it. I made mistakes. I rejected the whole idea of problems and issues. and to get away with it, I tried to just...run away. I never ever think myself as a coward, until now, I realize how coward I am. those problems I face every single day is like an endless war. secrets guilt and....unstable emotions.  a friend said that a matter doesn't have to be complicated. well, my friend you are so totally wrong I can cho...