Wondrous Life of a Dreamer

this was what happened to me when I thought I was going to throw up onto my drawings 1. "uh oh how pretty this shadow makes from my furniture template!! uwwwooww those squares and circles creates beautiful blurry green shape on my drawing paper...reminds of a monument in Kumamoto, Japan by Japanese architect Kumiko Inui. The monument called Shin-Yatsushiro and its for people who waits for the train (aduh namanya apaan yak), station!!. that monument won Architectural Record Design Vanguard 2008. How cool is thaat! she's only 41, weyy!      2. "this french curve trying to make jokes out of it, trying to laugh so hard at my drawings. apa lo ketawa2??" 3. "pieces of my separate hands: 2 types of pencils, one Boxy, french curve and furniture template. my work: my very-slow-to-make-progress-plan drawing.    4. "uh woow, how many drawings I've made?? can you count it with your foot finger??"  ...

segala kemungkinan terpapar di depan seakan terbentang tanpa ada sesuatu tersembunyi terbentang kian lebar kemudian menutup kembali semuanya kabur saat kabut menyelimutinya atau memang sengaja? aku hanya duduk dari kejauhan menatap semua yang ada di depanku semuanya bisa saja ilusi mengaburkan pandangan tapi saat melihat keberadaannya segalanya lebih cerah seakan kabut yang menyelimutinya hilang seketika tapi ia menghindar dengan menciptakan kembali kabut itu aku hanya dapat melihat secercah dirinya yang tersisa aku hanya pasrah dari jauh ingin segera melihatnya kembali membawa cahaya yang tidak pernah aku lihat saat ia membuka kembali aku tau saat itu adalah segalanya yang aku inginkan keberadaanya kehangatan cahaya tapi aku tak tau apakah itu yang seharusnya apakah aku salah apakah seharusnya aku menjauh apakah aku terjebak dalam ilusi cahayanya? apakah aku mengkhayal? yang ternyata semuanya bukanlah kenyataan seperti yang aku inginkan cahaya tidak pern...

  I love the strong character between pink color and gold. they defines glamourism (is that word exist?? correct me if I'm wrong hehe) p.s: thank you for my friend Thata offering me those cute bracelet I've always wanted hehehehe...

me the one with the chocolate sarong

it seems endless.... this is not a story this is only a mind who speaks everytime, whenever it wants sometimes I can't catch the train inside my head it keeps moving so fast I can't even make it stop than the thoughts flows to my mouth as it come out to be a puzzle I cannot solve it is chaosness inside my head inside my brain inside my soul inside my solitary room I have a room of my own a space which only mind able to conceive a space inside my heart beating slower than my mind can count every tempo of my life life is a memory too much memory in just one mind another chaos comes, but never goes it stays they never understand I thought one could but leave me in an unknown emptiness without explanation leave me I've never felt so alone alone in a running mind it used to be fixed with only words but now, it back to a normal chaos hey, its just another chaos everybody has it in their own house of mind yes it is just another play for ...

rambling. that's what I love to do and really great at it. if there's too much inside my head, it feels like I wanna blow up inside me and burst into the salty sea (?) diving until I reaches the bottom. I used to do whatever I want without think clearly first. so it will turned out become a rambling stuff. well,  tonight to be excact I'm nganggur..I should be doing my homework for studio tomorrow, instead I'm rambling in my blog listening to mayer, the police, robyn, oona and estelle. oh yeah, recently (btw this one is not a ramble stuff) I've learn some new moves to take my team to dance competition in just a few weeks. the choreo is nuts and still going to continue..long way to go and my knees already hurts like hell. but hey its a new experience for me and surely really challengging for all of us. I was quiet surprise that the choreo was sooo out-reaching, for me, I don't know for the others. during the rehearsals I was a little bit keteteran because keep f...

I totally love this routine by Sonya Tayeh on So You Think You Can Dance Season 7 featuring Eleanore and Jakob . They both are fantastic dancers. Also not only the routine which fascinates me, the melody of the song are sooo damn nice in rhythm.. like when you wanna step on the floor, Tango-ing with your enemy without hesitation.. Looking in the eye that 'you...know that you tore my heart!' just only saying..hahahaha.. somebody tored my heart? perhaps..you better watch out.. naah kidding :D Tore My Heart by Oona La la la la... If I had my way You would still be stuck on me But when I rock myself to sleep I dream of you again La la la la... You know you tore my heart, dear Just when I always thought La la la la... Somewhere youre fast asleep I hope youre terrified One wild nightmare Cause you tore my heart I still feel your skin Soft as velvet, thick as sin Whisper tender, shiver deep You got me good, no good for me La la la la... Somewhere ...