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semuanya kembali

segala kemungkinan terpapar di depan
seakan terbentang tanpa ada sesuatu tersembunyi
terbentang kian lebar
kemudian menutup kembali
semuanya kabur saat kabut menyelimutinya
atau memang sengaja?

aku hanya duduk dari kejauhan menatap semua yang ada di depanku
semuanya bisa saja ilusi mengaburkan pandangan
tapi saat melihat keberadaannya segalanya lebih cerah
seakan kabut yang menyelimutinya hilang seketika

tapi ia menghindar dengan menciptakan kembali kabut itu
aku hanya dapat melihat secercah dirinya yang tersisa
aku hanya pasrah dari jauh
ingin segera melihatnya kembali membawa cahaya yang tidak pernah aku lihat

saat ia membuka kembali
aku tau
saat itu adalah segalanya yang aku inginkan
keberadaanya
kehangatan cahaya

tapi aku tak tau apakah itu yang seharusnya
apakah aku salah
apakah seharusnya aku menjauh
apakah aku terjebak dalam ilusi cahayanya?

apakah aku mengkhayal?
yang ternyata semuanya bukanlah kenyataan seperti yang aku inginkan

cahaya tidak pernah berbohong
aku ingin cahaya itu kembali, setiap detik dalam hidupku
meski secara bersamaan membuatku sengsara karena terbakar
namun aku tak peduli...

karena jika semuanya kembali,
dunia akan lebih terselamatkan...

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