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a not so little distraction

life is a goal. that is what's in my mind for as long as live until I found something.

it makes me weak. more weaker than any moment in my life.

I should have strength like most people do.

but I loose my faith on my strength. 

what is life when you're to weak to do anything.

no goal which can driven your blood crazy?

that's makes me a zombie or maybe a vampire

I've gone so deep into the woods

cannot drive back

why I can do this to myself?

why do I hurt my poor little self?

why I can't go back to my old self?

struggling and dreaming of things that inspires me?

is it because this little distraction?


I want to break free.
Something holds me down.
or Someone.



let me be myself again.

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