so here's the story.. yesterday i opened my facebook and my friend made a status that tomorrow (which is today)that the announcement of SIMAK UI was held at May, 8th 2010. i was like really freaking shock! i thought the announcement on May 15th. i just got panicked and my dad told me (he was reading a Kompas) that the announcement was tomorrow (which is today, i already said that, didn't I?).
i couldn't sleep the night before. so i just controlled my breathing all the time and pray to God that the announcement would be a good news for me. i just couldn't wait any longer. that night i dreamed, horrible.. that i couldn't get through. but the first dream was pretty weird. and the second one i don't remember, and the third one, well kinda a bit relief for me because my mom (in my dream) read at the newspaper that my name was in the list. but something strange happened.
well, thank God all those three freaking dreams was not happenin at all.
today, i woke up at 6 and hurriedly trying to wait the newspaper. so, i waited.. why the hell.. where's the newspaper man?? so i figured it out that the man would come at 9 am! i can't wait that long.
so i just waited until 8 to find it at the website. it didn't take long enough and i discovered that I MADE IT THROUGH!!! O MY GOD. i cried soooo freaking hard my mom just going crazy about it. she didn't know what to do.. well, i had my sister to check it out if it's real or fake. and it's real!! hahaha i can't believe it, it was just like a miracle.. my whole freaking months i've been waited for this moment, i prayed all day, do the right thing (not always actually), studied sooo hard until my brain fell out just like that, and well my hopes and dreams i wanted this sssoooo bad and now it's happening.. and i don't have to burden my family, especially my dad, and being a good role model for my sister and my cousin, and all i'm just soo happy right now. i can't think of anything except this. i i've proven all the teachers and my friends that i'm a person who can make a difference for my self, and cannot be intimidated anymore..
that feeling i felt when i cried. my funny little cousin went a little scared when i was crying like wow, i didn't even remember. he said: serem mba. ahahaha
okaay, my dad, even more funnier than ever:
me: dad, i didn't get through (wait a second..)
dad: (just go home from swimming) huh, oh okay (looked at my mother)
mother: (hhihihi laughing alone)
me: i didn't get through to Trisakti (my backup university)
dad: oh well (he obviously didn't get it at all!!)
me: dad, i didn't get into Trisakti
dad: (silent for a moment) oh, aaaah.. hahahaha okaaay okaay
me: yey i made it through UI
dad: well, congrats! i already know that (but his face was a little bit too serious, he just doesn't want us to know that he is freeeaking worried haha) i text mr. 'B' yesterday
me: oooh whatever.. well thanks dad thanks sooo much
dad: yeah it's okay. go take a bow on me haha
me: no waaaay hahaha
and we laughed a lot..
so, my new problem is:
- i have to look for a new place to live
- study haaard (again)
- find myself a job
- being a good girl and just enjoy the rest of my awsome holiday